November 30, 2007

Wow…okay so I’ve been waiting because I have not been able to find my camera.  I’ll just update you and you’ll have to imagine things with me about some highlights the last month:

  • Men’s retreat in Ventura – and hanging out with Rick, Jared and Josh (my team from last year =)…it was too last minute for Jake, otherwise Amber would’ve totally let him come – Rick was close for some work related thing so he came – it was so fun!
  • RD day away in Malibu; hiking and climbing with some really great people!
  • Chapel Band retreat in Palm Springs – its been great working with one of my best friends (Pete Bargas) – no Pete isn’t in Chapel Band – he’s actually my boss and takes care of the band; which he’s doing a great job with!  Otherwise, the Band this year is great!!! 
  • Amber Dennis’ surprise birthday party
  • Kid’s Choir this month!
  • Thanksgiving with the Savini family – we played Bingo for 2 hours – hahaha!
  • Dinner with Brad
  • Hanging out with Mike Butler
  • Indian food with COC people
  • Lebanese food with Becs at her Labanese church people’s house – soooooo good!!!
  • conversations with Summer
  • one-on-ones with RAs
  • late night runs to Wal-Mart with Josh Ward
  • Dorm chapel on Wednesday – we played dodge ball – i’ve been trying to get my guys to play for the last 3 years – last year my RAs were willing but didn’t have time – the years before were not up for the idea…don’t remember why – but we did it this year and it was a blast!
  • Christmas decorations in Hotchkiss – christmas kind of threw up in our dorm – I love it though!
  • God’s grace with family
  • sushi with Ko!
  • Guy RD meetings!
  • my ceiling fan
  • my last RA team time – such a great time!
  • hanging out with Durso
  • pink berry
  • Psalm 16
  • sleep
  • Christmas break coming up

okay, so this ended up being a list of things I am thankful for – those are highlights right?  I need to find my camera!



November 23, 2007

Tonight I didn’t know what to do – literally!  I decided to take side streets home from Thanksgiving at mom’s.  So, off the 101 freeway I took an exit that I was unfamiliar with – and be reminded it was 9pm already.  I had no idea where I was going.  I don’t know why i decided to do that.  I mean I knew that the streets were familiar and I knew kind of the direction I was going, but I didn’t, y’know?  Anyway, it took me about 35 mins to get back on the freeway (after driving through Hollywood and ended up in Van Nuys). 

During the drive I was listening to an old school worship song “Thy Word” – “Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path…When I feel afraid I think I’ve lost my way, still You’re right there beside me.  Nothing will I fear, as long as you are near, please be with me to the end…” so on.  As I was driving and listening and occasionally singing, I started to cry out to God, “Lord what do you want me to do, I don’t know what to do”.  By then it was more than a cry to get me back to the freeway, in fact it wasn’t that at all.  I wasn’t scared of being lost in the down streets, I guess it was exactly what the Lord used to get me to think about what I am doing with my life, who I am and who I want to become, where He wants me, what He wants me to do etc.   

There were more thoughts and prayers that I’d rather keep between me and the Lord at this time – all I know is that the Lord was kind to get me to a point where I haven’t been in a long time – “Lord, I don’t know what to do – please do whatever it is You want me to do”.  I don’t know all the implications or even the next step but I know that His Word is a lamp that will guide all of that.  

Tonight I realized that my will had been my god, even if they were well intended (ministry, relationships, growth etc).  Sometimes our good intentions are not what the Lord wants and how blind I am to think that they are.  I had been asking the Lord to approve my will for His glory rather than surrender my will for His glory.  I do hope and pray I change as a result of God doing it; even my best effort isn’t enough. 

I will not forget your love for me and yet my heart forever is wandering.  Jesus be my guide and hold me to Your side and I will love You to the end. 

Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. 

Nothing will I fear as long as You are near, please be near me to the end.

 “Your word is a lamp to my feet
      And a light to my path.” -Psalm 119:105


Home Game

November 20, 2007

Tonight the guys play against Concordia – I’m usually not that excited about the games but I am tonight.  I think because I really love the guys on the team – I know a few of them (the guys in my dorm and the guys there were in my dorm) and I’ve been meeting some of the new ones.  Anyway, it makes a difference when you love the people invovled more than you do the actual sport.  That’s not as superficial – I like hearing them talk about it, especially when they’re trying to teach me all of what’s involved.  But when it gets too overwhelming for me I just tell them. 

Anyway, Ryan Reed, who lived in my dorm, who now goes to Concordia is playing tonight against our guys.  That’ll be fun! 



November 19, 2007

Congratulations to The Master’s College Men’s Soccer Team for winning the National Championship in Florida!!!  Good job guys!  Can’t wait to see you!


November 19, 2007

Here’s why I love Kid’s Choir

We passed out egg shakers to practice with (the whole goal is to encourage them to worship the Lord with their entire being using instruments…so fun!).  Anyway, the last time we rehearsed with these plastic egg shakers, the children complained about which color they didn’t have and wanted.  This time around we encouraged them to be thankful for the color God gave them.  So, I asked if they could think of something God created that was the color egg they received.  John Horning (good ‘ol John) says this, and I quote:

“Red.  Red is for the color of the blood that Jesus splattered on the cross for our sins”

Yep, that’s right!  “Splattered”!  Can’t get any better than that – truth and grace right there folks!  


November 19, 2007

Today I got in my car and drove.  I had a couple of places in mind to go to but didn’t end up there.  I actually just drove to Carson.  Then I took the down streets back. 

Sometimes life takes a different turn and even the day has its twists.  Today was no exception.  It was a normal day but for some odd reason my mind just snapped.  I had to get out.  I had to leave for a while.  I knew that when that happened I had to make a committment to come back.  As funny as that sounds it is true.  I didn’t have too much of a temptation to leave but it was there lurking. 

Now, I don’t know why I had that urge.  Without making it more than it is, I think I just needed to get some fresh air, cool off, not think about anything here.  So, I silenced my cell phone, grabbed a CD, my bible and my journal and I drove.  When I got to Carson, I just drove to a park near home.  Got out of the car with my bible and journal in hand and sat a bench.  When I sat down, I then laid on the bench and took a nap.  I don’t know how long I was there but it sure seemed like forever.  There was a man at a neighboring table taking a lunch break from his job (I’m assuming).  I don’t know how far away his job was but I wonder if he had traveled an hour away just to sit at that park like I did. 

The elementary school across the street soon had a class come out for P.E. – it was really refreshing to watch them play kick ball and hand ball.  I enjoy the playground noise from children who have been in the classroom all day exerting energy they’re dying to let out. 

I got back in my car and drove back to Santa Clarita.  When I started to drive back I was just really thankful to the Lord for times away.  Sometimes, its difficult to take a break from ministry but sometimes it is needed and sometimes its a must!  Today was a must. 

I had a great time with God today, actually it was pretty humbling.  I was frustrated that things didn’t go my way and I found myself very much like a little brat in a toy store wanting all the toys all at the same time – how selfish!  Blah, blah, blah…I’m over it! 

I wish I could take a break from myself but I can’t so I don’t wish that anymore.  Instead, my thinking and my heart changed.  How?  God.  That’s it.  I’m not going to procede to try to explain it – I just believe that it was.  So, I’m thankful for the drive. 

It was nice to drive away and back to work – the traffic wasn’t that bad but I actually didn’t mind it either.  I know, I don’t drive it everyday, in fact, I don’t drive to work at all – and I’m thankful for that.  But sometimes its nice to step away from it and realize I have no control over it – never did and I never need to. 

I was gone a total of 4 hours – I know it doesn’t seem all that much to you but it was great to have that time alone!  So, go for a drive if you need to just make sure you go back!


November 2, 2007

Today someone reminded me that friendship is being able to not go anywhere when a friend of yours is in need  and you’re there to help meet it.  This made me think of it a little more. 

Here are just a few thoughts having thought through the last couple of things in light of the last couple of months, years and relationships:

  • A friend is there when you are being disciplined by the Lord
  • A friend is there when you kick them in the face and even push you away
  • A friend is there when you come back
  • A friend faithfully wounds you and is honest with you and sometimes hard on you 
  • A friend is also encouraging  
  • A friend is there when you doubt and lose faith
  • A friend moves in uninvited and speaks to you about getting back on track
  • A friend will wait
  • A friend doesn’t let you do what you want to do
  • A friend will fight for you 
  • A friend will ask    
  • A friend will love you no matter what
  • A friend will care for you
  • A friend will take care of you
  • A friend surprises you (good and bad)
  • A friend makes you laugh
  • A friend talks with you and not just to you
  • A friend loves at all times
  • A friend misses you when they haven’t seen you and tells you
  • A friend loves Christ even when you don’t
  • A friend knows your family and considers your family as their very own
  • A friend says, “Hey lets move to Africa/Hawaii/Iraq/India together”
  • A friend lays down his life for you

There are others and I am very aware of not doing any of the above well, sometimes not at all.  I fail and have with particular people.  Sad.  But I have had a few people show the above faithfully.  Thank you. 

I am learning (especially as an RD) that these things don’t come easily.  In fact, it is difficult yet very joyful at times.  I love the relationships (people) that have been developed and sad of the ones that have died out…such is life.  

Thanks friend, for reminding me to be a friend.  I have tons to learn about that, really I do.