REST ’08

December 21, 2008

The dorm is empty. Quiet and cold. Calm and peaceful. I’m just about ready for rest. Just a few more loose ends to tie up and I’ll be ready to move on.

I’ve decided that my rest isn’t going to be a “break”. A break implies that I deserve something and the truth is, I don’t. Honestly. Its here and its costing me nothing, so its free. Another significant something that I have not the right to “own” but I will try to make the most of it. I’m thankful for it and don’t want to waste it.

I said my good byes to the guys in the dorm and I’m not flooded with misfortunes or joys that have occured during this last semester. I don’t think I’m in denial, I just would rather thank God for it. Even the more shameful parts of it, the parts where I thought of myself instead of others. Or the part where I actually served myself instead of others. The magnitude of that weight overwhelms me. Today was I reminded that Jesus gives something lighter in return for my weighted burden of guilt, shame, sin, self-righteousness etc. That was freeing (thanks Sam).

I started making a list (a good one) of books to read (finish Life of Pi, Three Cups of Tea, A Thousand Splendid Suns, Unpacking Forgiveness and Worship Matters (again), and actually started to read them (thought about people who’ve inspired me to read: Deb, Moni, Sam, Happy, Durso and Joe). I then started to update and keep my budget. I am more than half way through my final project for class (I had to get an extension). I rented 3 movies today and watched one of them. I read some more and thanked the Lord for the assurance of Salvation that I have in His Word, that became flesh.

I purchased gifts for my family – not finished yet. I wrote cards for parents of some of the guys I’m close with in the dorm. God gave me some really good moments writing thoughts out about these guys.

I prayed for a dear friend who was recently diagnosed with cancer. I prayed for her husband – then I prayed for the gospel to go forth as a result of this. Then the gospel compelled me to pray more. So, I prayed for another couple who is close to me, who is having another kind of a difficult time. Finally, I prayed for a couple that have been really dear to me, who recently asked me to sing in their wedding in July. Then I thought a long while about these 3 couples and I was full in my heart with such grattitude!

Listened to a song by Matt Wertz, “I Will Not Take My Love Away” and a song by Room For Two entitled “Roots Before Branches”. Both powerfully and beautifully inspiring.

The only thing I didn’t do that I really wanted to do (and need to do) is run. Bummer. Lord willing, there’s tomorrow.

So, in short this is what I want to do with these next two weeks: rest, read, run, pray, watch movies, catch up with whoever and sleep well (ya, that is different from resting; it could include it but it doesn’t have to).

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5 Responses to “REST ’08”

  1. Sam Neylan said

    oh, and did you want to add Do Hard Things, per our conversation?
    you’re cool.
    thanx for time today!
    šŸ™‚

  2. Happy said

    Hey Ona, I love reading these kinds of posts from you. Sounds like you have a good balance for the “rest.” I’ve been pondering rest recently, as I haven’t gotten much of it, but I finally am beginning to understand more of what you always talk about: pouring yourself out for God and his people. It hurts, sometimes it hurts a lot, but it such a joy to see responses to God that you had nothing to do with! Keep reading!

  3. becca said

    hey! i read a thousand spendid suns and am reading three cups of tea right now! great minds… šŸ™‚ maybe while you’re on break we can get that trip to ikea in? or, did you already go? maybe pita pit at least?

  4. Jared said

    Ona, don’t I inspire you to read as well? I always encouraged you to read the sports section, didn’t I?

    I hope you had a great Christmas. Enjoy the time off. I know what you mean about the empty dorm. It makes it even better when everyone comes back.

    Hopefully Holly and I will see you at T&L!

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