THE TRAVELING BEGINS

June 21, 2009

My summer adventure begins tomorrow.  Well, I guess it begins now since I’m packing up for it.  Man, can I just tell you that I never seem to know what to pack, even if I’ve been to where I’m going?  Actually, I’m taking a detour so I suppose this time is different. 

Tomorrow afternoon, I’m helping my college, former co-RD’s/laborers in ministry, and life long friends (Dave & Tricia) drive out to Florida.  I’m not too sure what the actual game plan is but last I heard, we’re going to stop at the Grand Canyon for the evening, then make drive out to Texas, spend a few days there where Tricia’s parents live.  Dave and I will then drive only one of the cars (there’s 2 cars between the 3 of us – they’re having a moving company move there stuff) from Texas to Florida.  So, our plan is to pull into Jacksonville, Florida (final destination) by Sunday, June 28th.  Then I’ll spend that evening, Monday and Tuesday morning with Dave and help get their stuff settled in.  Tricia will stay in Texas and wait for Dave to fly back and then he’ll make that drive again with Tricia and the other car.  I’ll fly out from Jacksonville on my way to New Delhi India. 

I fly from Florida to DC, then to Munich, Germany Wednesday morning, spend 12 hours there (and explore – ideas anyone?), then fly out Wednesday evening and arrive into New Delhi 7am, July 2nd, Thursday morning where I’ll be the following 3 weeks. 

Until then please be mindful of my visa/passport that’s still in process.  I’m hoping to get it by the end of this week, here at Master’s, then it’ll be overnight to some friends already living in Florida.  I hope I get it by the 29th of June…

Anyway, I gotta get some more packing finished, then some little logistical things going here. 

We’ll see you soon!

UP TO DATE

June 8, 2009

Here’s the last few weeks in a nut shell:

  • had some a really full semester ending very smoothly (kinda)
  • had a lot of last good bye gatherings for Jeff & Dave
  • ate at Ruth’s Chris for the first time with Jeff
  • went to Magic Mountain with Zamroz (it was so fun…goliath was off the chain!)
  • went camping 5 nights within one week (2 separate camping trips)…enjoyed it
  • was rebuked for pushing an issue to far 🙂
  • was confronted a few times this last month
  • wrote 11 papers in the last week
  • got season 1 & 2 of “Rob & Big”
  • found a random mazda key in my apartment – yeah, it’d be nice to have a free new car, hugh?
  • reconnected with some peeps from the Worship Team – so good!
  • been sleeping past 6am
  • enjoying the quietness of the dorm
  • going to India with Gunner (&  other friends) in July after I help Dave & Tricia drive out to Florida
  • said good bye to Jeff – sad, sad times
  • will be saying good bye to Dave & Tricia – sad, sad times
  • hiring new RDs (well, I’m not hiring them, I’m just a part of the process)
  • reading a lot these days
  • writing a lot these days
  • running a lot these days
  • having dinner with Brian & Becca on wednesday
  • Zane’s staying/visiting this week – so good to see him
  • currently making my first summer mix
  • burned 3 mixes already (Jeff, Ginsberg & the Powells…I know, I feel legit or something)
  • been watching a lot of basketball…yeah, seriously…me?
  • excited about my RA team for next year (Brandon O’Sullivan, Thomas Millar, Caleb Hazel & Mark Golike)
  • my sister comes home next week
  • have thoroughly enjoyed the music of Jon Foreman & Phil Wickham
  • went to blue grass/brass band play at some club in L.A. with Jeff and then saw them on T.V. on the grammy’s
  • had the best time eating sushi with Mike Butler, Sam Neylan, Phil Anderson & David Wolter
  • loved my time doing music/elementary ministry in Hawaii
  • excited about the new Chapel Band
  • learning how to be more alert of my own attitudes, actions and motives… and how they impact people (Matthew, the gospel’s been helpful with that and other good graces from God)…man, i really have a lot to learn
  • also listening to a lot of hip-hop/R&B music…reminds me of my roots 🙂 – some good, some fun and others i probably wont listen to anymore
  • thinking a lot about what to do and where to go the rest of my life, after this up coming last year as RD (wow, I’m approaching 6 years…dang, that’s long!)
  • want to be gentle again, and be quiet again, and love again
  • want to paint my car black…all black, tint my windows and thug it out, kinda…ha!
  • learned a new board game from the Hulets
  • learning to think rightly so that i can live rightly
  • want to love God, not godliness

I’ve Got Nothing…

April 9, 2009

This semester seems like a blur – some good and some not as good.  I’ll just update and expound more later:

  • Dave & Jeff are not returning as RDs next year – sooooo bummed about that (but excited about their new opportunities)
  • Chapel Band released their new album
  • went to Hawaii during Spring Break (3rd year in a row going to Hawaii during Spring Break)…..miss the kawaguchi’s & the dirks!!!
  • doing massive amounts of school work
  • randomly hung out in Santa Barbara with J. Lewis and had an awesome RD day away
  • been working through the slim pickings for RAs for next year
  • auditions for next year’s Chapel Band
  • watched The Passion with Pete the other nite (intense)
  • drove up to Nothern Cali in less than a month
  • going to camp Hotchkiss for Easter weekend
  • learning a lot about friendship
  • thinking about going to Germany with Jeff in June
  • planning on going to India with Gunner in July
  • wish I had more sleep
  • miss my family

happy easter everyone!

IN THE STUDIO, AGAIN

February 23, 2009

Remember the recording Chapel Band started in January?  Well, we’re up north in Meadow Vista with Brian Steckler, me, Tommy, Janie & Emilie cutting vocals. 

It’s been great!  Its rain a ton up here and green.  Its really refreshing to be up here – kind of calming. 

Anyway, back to the studio.  See ya later.

A LIGHTER LOAD

February 19, 2009

For years now I’ve been repeating matters that separetes (Prov. 17:9b) intimate friends.  For this I have been grieved inside not only because I have affectively made this a pattern with some really dear friendships, but also because the first half of that verse says, “He who conceals a transgression seeks love,” and when I think about seeking love I think about all of the beautiful and satisfying ways God demonstrated His love in and through Christ and how within relationships, love really does and can redeem what has been broken, make new what is old and gives joy in the midst of all kinds of ache and sorrow. 

Last night one of my best friend’s counseled me in a practicum class we have together.  In short, he ministered the gospel to me and reminded me that the gospel is bigger than any opposition that I have or will ever face.  Thereby never having any valid reason to deffending myself from hurt, or offensively attacking others to gain what I want.  Why?  Because the gospel is all the agenda that I have in this life and in my communication and my relationships. 

When the Lord gives you a lighter load in exchange for your heavy one, there seems to be more room in your heart to long for heaven more; namely a longing for Christ more and a longing for what Christ wants.  I want that, I want more of that. 

Sometimes we carry things that we make up or sometimes they are real and unavoidable and yet we try to avoid them.  Then the become more weighty as time passes.  Identifying those things are good but nothing is more freeing than giving them over to Christ.  And nothing more powerful and loving than helping each other do that. 

Sometimes I want help, sometimes I don’t.  Other times I resist it because I am ashamed or too prideful.  But when the faithfulness of the Lord comes through the forms of enduring friends, you can’t help but fall flat to your face and worship God. 

I have been blessed immensely with friendships that have endured through some really distasteful misunderstandings and miscommunication or lack thereof.  But when the Lord works when He wants to there’s nothing hold Him back from restoring and making things new. 

So, if you find yourself thinking and believing that relationships, communication or friendships cannot be completely restored then please surrender that to the Lord and see what He does with it.  Believe me, its a lighter load than the one you’re carrying now.

EMBARRASSING, NO MORE

February 6, 2009

Tonight I saw Phil Wickham in concert with Mandy, Hollie, John and Polly.  I enjoyed my time with them.  We also saw Ben, Tommy, Emilie, Michelle and Matt there. 

During the concert, watching Phil sing, I was thinking about how unreserved he was singing for God.  Then I noticed different people worshiping, singing, clapping, sitting, etc for the Lord.  Then I thought about something Gunner and I talked about the other day about serving the Lord where ever, doing whatever with our gifts for the kingdom.  And doing it without any embarrassment or reservation or apology or shame, basically.   

I think some times I want to make sure that I present the Lord in a cool or accepting way.  Or that I want my walk with Jesus to be cool.  I’m getting sick and tired of that.  The Lord saves and He has saved me and there’s nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about.  Yet so often I am pulled into a mindset, whatever the situation that makes me “feel” uncool or not as “trendy” because I want to sing, serve, clap, sit, be still, be an idiot, communicate clearly the Scriptures, blog, laugh or cry for the Lord.  I don’t care if I am embarrassed for the Lord.  Nothing matters but Jesus but sometimes I act differently than that. 

I love Jesus, with all my heart and I want to show Him and the world that I do, even if it is embarassing or it makes me not cool or comfortable.  Cool and comfortable, though very appealing at first are overrated. 

blah, blah, blah…i guess i’m just tired of people trying to impress other people and using Jesus for that aaaaand seeing that in myself. 

I suppose discernment and wisdom can be coupled all in the same with sincere devotion and earnest passion.  I want to grow in all that because I see all that is in Christ.  He’s all I want and constantly all I need!

HAPPY BIRTHWEEK!

February 4, 2009

Birthday thanks/blessings/updates:

  • well, like every year, my birthday seems to start a few days early and end a few days later
  • gunner took me to chipotle last tuesday (here’s your shot out gun 🙂
  • my sister deb, emailed me twice (that’s always nice for me, i love my sisters)
  • mom called me the morning of my birthday, missed it then she called me later and we chatted – she’s cute and sweet!
  • other sister Dee called me later – had a great conversation with her about life and God
  • then tons of people wished me happy birthday on FB
  • pete took me to lunch, panda – romantic, i know 🙂   naw, pete’s legit – he’s a good friend.
  • holly left a sweet voicemail
  • a few people text
  • joe, heidi, pete, dave, kristy, bryan and i went to the great greek (sooo good)
  • then guys in the dorm (jackie & laura) had a surprise little celebration, with cookies, ice cream and $100 gift card for itunes – how legit is that?  man, they really did a lot for me – i’ll let you all know my first purchase will be in a future post. 
  • lets see, friday mark golike took me to red robin for dinner for my birthday – he’s frosh and was a real servant about it. 
  • then later, the RDs and friends had an awkward party for me, beth catron and jake ebner – seriously, that was the theme.  and if you know me, i’m not a big fan of awkward.  i either avoid it, ignore it or create it.  but this was ridiculous.  by the end i was grossed out about it.  i was done with it. 
  • then after that, i saw slumdog (again) with holly, mandy, john and beth.  oh, and our friend theodore (i made that name up)- that was fun!  theodore sat in front of us and made commentary the entire movie – it was comical!
  • saturday, ben and phil took me and beth to egg plantation for our birthdays, mainly because saturday was beth’s birthday (and mind you mine was 2 days before that) and ben & phil missed my birthday because they were in WA. 
  • after that, i hung out with team india and saw slumdog with them (again, and last time til the DVD comes out). 
  • then saturday, went to luna (some restaurant in hollywood) with beth, bart, amy, laura and isaiah.  it was fun, the food was excellent and the ambience was cool. 
  • oh, then pastor bob wished me a happy birthday 🙂 on sunday… that was special. 

okay, so that was kind of dreadful going through again.  i guess when you start getting to a certain age, it just doesn’t matter as much – i feel like people think i’m still 25, 21 or even 16 or something.  however, i am thankful, really i am.  i don’t mean to sound like i’m complaining.  its really humbling to know that people do care and are willing to go to great lengths to make me feel special or to show they care or both.  i think i just would prefer to have my birthday be that, a day 🙂  i definitely ate way too much this last week. 

thanks to everyone for your kindness and friendship – the Lord has afforded me much with you all!  i do hope and pray a year of restoration, refreshment and growth.

LAUGH, LAUGH, LAUGH

February 3, 2009

I would like to describe them all for you but I can’t – it would require too many words that aren’t in my limited vocabulary.  Anyway, here’s what I want to do;  I posted a while back some of my favorite hair(s) or whatever.  So, now I’ve decided to list for you my favorite laughs.  I’m sure I’m going to offend or forget a few, but you’ll get over it, I hope…

Here they are, people who, when they get going or just really great out bursts of GOOD laughs –  in no particular order:

  • all my siblings – any of the savini’s really, seriously…if you’ve heard me laugh you should hear all of us laugh together
  • jeff lewis
  • dave hulet
  • jared foy (makes me smile just thinking about it)
  • ben blakey
  • sam neylan
  • holly worsham (especially college years when matt pearson would egg you on)
  • phil anderson
  • chris travis
  • adam carmichael (when i laugh with adam, we kind of blend really well)
  • jennene margrave
  • eric margrave
  • joe keller
  • happy gilmore
  • rick dennis
  • esther dennis
  • kyle jenison
  • casey jenison
  • jake dennis
  • beth catron
  • team india (’08)
  • meredith ebner
  • josh ward
  • ryan zamroz
  • wesley shryock
  • tommy delmuro
  • majesty (1998-2000)
  • dr. plew
  • andrew shearer
  • babies laughing, well not multiple, so i guess a baby’s laugh
  • old people

i guess these are people who i’ve laughed with a lot.  its such a good gift from the Lord; I’m so thankful for it.  the truth is, i love to laugh and i love to make others laugh and i love it when laughing is happening and i’m not even a part of it, which is rare 🙂 just kidding.

EVALUATION

January 27, 2009

okay, so last night i finished up an evaluation that we annually do here for our deans, RAs, staff etc.  and i’m baffled at how quick i am to evaluate so harshly or so unreasonably.  i know there is room for “correction” and “redirection” but i found myself at a place valuing relationship and interaction around what its done for me (a lot of that is due to the questions asked like, “how have you been cared for?” or “how can we help you in your job/ministry etc?”).  i know i have normal, God-given needs.  that’s mainly because i need a savior.  but i’m slowly learning that life, relationships, singleness or marriage, missions overseas or here are all about what you lose, not what you gain.  simple concept, it seems.  but its not.  its hard for me to learn that and live that – i’m still fighting that now, when i think about what my dean is going to say about me when he evaluates my “performance” on the job.  but i want to lose it all.   

Jesus says, If you want to gain your life, throw it away (paraphrase adopted by Howard Hendricks).  what a revolutionary way of living.  i can’t live this way without Jesus patiently changing me from moment to moment, from the inside out.  how humbling is that?  Jesus stationed where He is, actively, gently, powerfully changing the heart?  my heart? what’s really freeing is that He promised to finish that!  beautiful.  astounding. 

so, when i look at others and my interaction and relationships with them, am thankful for them,  am joyful with them, am frustrated with them, impatient, judgemental, harsh, irritated etc., i ought to and will strive to remember the Lord Jesus and His relationship with me.  i want to evaluate that more and more.

Today was my last day of my break.  I am so thankful to God for it.  Most people do have breaks and I don’t think I wasted it.  In fact it went by so fast I don’t think I had time to waste it. 

Christmas was very humbling.  I spent it at home in Carson (yes, Carson’s still home to me – in fact, home is wherever my family is…blah, blah, I do admitt that I have a family with my friends here in the valley, or in Samoa, or in India with brothers and sisters in the Lord…).  Anyway, it was cool because it was me, my mom, my brother Bert and my eldest sister Doreen.  Debbie was unable to come out from Samoa.  Sad.  We had a glass of wine and just toasted with thankgiving the Christmas “holiday” and thanked the Lord, each, for His kindness this last year.  It was particularly special because of our family break through this last July. 

Our break through was a long awaited family (including Deb) meeting that involved confronting each other, confessing to each other, encouragment, tears, clarification, affirmation, challenge, celebration, understanding, direction and more.  It was what the Lord used to remind each of us of hope, grace and communication.  It was one of the most reviving times with people that I have every experienced. 

Since then my family has been the closest we have ever been.  Not free from conflict, we’re moved forward with the way we handle it now.  No assumptions, no ill feelings just better thinkers of each other. 

Well, today was nice.  I went to church, so late.  It was my fault.  Had lunch with the Margraves, Phil and Thomas at Whole Foods.  Eric says because he didn’t want half foods.  It was good.  I was craving pinapple anyway and I had tons.  Yum!  Then came back to the apt, practiced for the recording and Truth & Life, then went to the Margraves to hang out.  We watched Barak and ate Beef stew and barley with Holly.  It was fun! 

Good break. Now its time to work.  RDs start up Tuesday, Chapel Band instrumentalists come back that night, then we start recording Wednesday through Saturday.  Then rehearsals for TLC start on Sunday through Tuesday.  Monday my RAs come back and the chaos begins. 

Pray for me and all this.